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Monday, August 20, 2007
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YAYS today nic, cleone, des and i studied at the airport again.. it was kind of alright... well did pom and macro... but still have some doubt which i need to clear with des on thursday. planning study somewhere at the central area...
this morning, 6+ am, kim smsed and said she can't come cause of a terrible food poisoning. poor Kim, vomited and had diarrhoea... but her sms is damn funny!
then i reach tanah merah damn early... then everyone will be late... so i decided to go airport to wait for them, at the same time meet des who reached already. met him, went T1 because we wanna eat popeyes.. des ate 2 pcs meal while i ate fries... i waited for nic and cleone to arrive then i eat with them. guess wat, des ate AGAIN! this time the shrimp thing... and there was this sign which says we can't study there.. i think they put it up after we studied there last thursday... EAT SHIT! haha.. so des suggested coffee bean and we went... as usual, i kept going to the toilet... sian... OH AND SERENE PANG SEH-ED US!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAH!!!! but i got used to it! haha.. nic left to pick up her youngest sis from sch and came back... her sis is sooo cute can! eyes small small like tadpole! nic like some super young mother... and des loved her so much that he spent $5+ on buying her sweets.. hahaha.. and he is juz so fatherly!!! AWWW.... took some photos... since nic's baby won't get to see this, i'm going to put up the pic which consist of nic, des and carol(sis)... a family pic can!!!! and des was saying before that he dun like children! hahaha! funny shit!

i've grown fatter!!!! SHIT!!! i need to increase the amt of situps i'm doing to 250... for the next whole month... well actually until the day i slim down... hopefully!

motherly nic!

the fatherly side of des!

family photo

oh did i mention that NICOLE LIM WAS SOOO UN- GLAM!!!!! hahaha!

oh and after the arrival of nic's sis, everyone was refrained from speaking unruly in front of her! freaking funny!

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7:31 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007
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ITs sat, and i couldn't study... its horrible.. exams nearing, concentration is drifting... ok i guess i can study better at the airport... with girlfriends.. =)

so i'm juz gonna slack for the weekends... and kim juz sent me more photos.. so i'll juz upload them...

and also, i wanna watch SECRET (recommended by vanny) and rush hour 3 (again) .. cause its really hilarious! and secret is romantic... hope i'll cry while watching... haha!!!

i'm going to bring csa notes, textbook, pom, macroecons and lsm to study... its freaking heavy, but i seriously need to study all of them by monday.... (well, at least touch a few chaps of each! my target!

and i miss my clan... i doubt we will have any chance to meet in the hols... cause they will be having exams after hols... right... thats kind of stupid.. not letting them enjoy the hols... but i guess i will meet my beloved ex- tuition frens! haha! my ex- tutor for eng is really a cool person! haha.. miss them so much... i have to give him credit for me improving in eng.. (ok, this is kind of random...)

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1:56 PM

Friday, August 17, 2007
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Yesterday, girlfriends and i went studying at the airport POPEYES(dunno how to spell)...
we did the tutorial case and exam case... it was quite effective.. but kim juz couldn't concentrate... she only finished her case like .. er.. today... haha! she was either distracted by me talking to others or her handphone... goodness..
after finishing the 2 cases, i'm like kinda switched off so didn't continue with other subjects...
got to know csa marks... i got an A!!! the first A.. macro i lose marks for project... kind of sad it pulled down my marks... and during the study, we ate fried chicken and fries, which were heavenly... much better than kfc... the fries was nice too.
going to study with them next week again... but this time maybe shld do macro.. i still can't understand abt money stuffss.... so yeah.. must buck up... and i realised something... comparing myself when i was in sec sch and now... i don't really feel the difference but one thing is that my results start off well... well... except law... lcom's 1st 2 test totally suck.. lsm test was ok... OP TOTALLY ROCKS!!!! got back comments for lcom side, yeah i improved alot... which i'm very happy about.... i managed to not be solemn, be energetic ( mr j was wondering wat i had before the op, redbull?) haha no i didn't, its juz that i took his comments seriously... i seriuosly felt elated me having good comments for oral presentation... maybe its cause i came from a chinese speaking family, so naturally i'm not good in articulation... chinese has always been my stronger languauge, so when i first came into this course, i was kind of afraid that my weak foundation for eng will not make me excel in this course..and also, in sec sch, my presentation skills really suck... mr j's good comment meant alot to me... really.. its like sort of a motivation.. so until now i still can't get over the fact that i presented well... however, if this thing happens last time, i would tell my mum abt it... but now.. i seriously dun feel like talking to her abt sch stuff... dunno why.. maybe its because in the past, when i say that i did well, she will say "this is wat u shld get, its ur job as a student to concentrate on studies... u shld do well" and stuff... so if i tell her and she reply me these, its kind of demoralising, cause she always say she was once a student.. but the fact that she never went through tertiary education, made her not understand what we poly students are going through, all the more in mr j's class... so i shared the happiness by repeating in my mind what mr j said... and this is sort of my biggest achievement. although its not big and stuff...
my goal that i want to achieve within the 2 year of my course is to speak brilliant english... before my intern... i want eng, legal lingo, law stuffs to be my forte... because i wana be a lawyer.. but for now, i'm still kind of blur abt legal stuffs...

i can't wait to get our lsm results.. shld be out soon... and i'm going to study macro and pom tml... hopefully... AH.. lucky mr j did not put the monday incident to heart... it was horrendous! we were in the lec, then ah lun slammed the door, so i said " WAh lucky ferlin not around ah, if not u die ar!" it was damn loud... guess wat all along ferlin was sitting behind me and i didn't realise!!!! i felt uncomfortable after that.... the msg that ferlin was behind did not reach me at all, not even a hint.. mr j only said "MR ferlin, u mean?" then i was like "yes yes, mr ferlin, sorry sorry" i was freaking out! but after today, i felt better...

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9:46 PM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007
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Today school was ok... macro was kind of alright cause there wasn't much to do... did two qns and SIMON showed us some of his money collection ... which was soooo cool!!! and it was simon's payday! saw a whole thick stack of $50 notes and 2 $1000 notes... omg i wish i was the one who have them....

then got our grade for macro.... B+ analysis sort of pull me down a little.... i got A for the test... but afterall.. i didn't fail... and for POM i got B+ too.. well for this its thanks to project which we got A+!!!!! woohoo... 72/80.. my part did quite well... so yeah!!! only 3 ppl ut we managed to do well... now, the most important thing to maintain my grade is the main exam.... which is like in less than 2 week's time.... and guess wat.. i couldn't bring myself to studying.... seriously.... i really need to study like ... NOW! but.. u noe... the slack mode seems stuck.. i couldn't tune back to mug mode.... this is the worst thing to happen... in sec sch ... i was always slacking.. but i cannot slack now... i'm going to try later... anyway tml most likely to go studying with my bunch of buds... but we can't seem to find a good place to study....

i bet SAI started studying liao lor... haha!!! and i don't believe that sai has a bf... haha.. i can't imagine her having one.. really...

anyway, today BO man wore a shocking pink t-shirt which is super ugly... (not the shirt but the person wearing it)!!!! EEWWWWWW!!!!!!!! i mean some guys wear pink is uber nice... but BO man is !!!! *VOMIT

and lcom was cancelled today... so went home after lunch... at Toa payoh hub... i saw bryan wong, Quan Yi feng, quo liang, quo shu xian, huang bi ren and some guy whom i forgot his name... they were doing some variety show called "LAW BY LAW" so i was kind of interested... bryan and yifeng were the "plaintiff's" and "defendent's" "lawyer"... and the case scenario was about Shuxian's car was 1 months old.. then she brought it to the repair shop to make the car "nicer" (as there were some dents).. so the guy let her sign a contract ragrading the repair.. then after some time, shuxian went to collect her car and found that the car was crashed in the front part.. so she wants the person to get her a new car.. so on so forth... well it was kind of interesting.. tort law i suppose...

and bryan is kind of cute.. remembered i met him once when i was really young.. he did not change at all!!!! baby face! huang bi ren is pretty.. she has the classy kind of look... not bad not bad...

took a few far shots...

and this is the shade i bought from top shop weeks ago: $15 only cause they were having sales

alright thats abt it! Ciao

Labels: I NEED TO STUDY

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4:49 PM

Saturday, August 11, 2007
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ok its been a long time since i last blogged.... was kind of lazy + no time due to project OPsss... yeah now that all projects are OVER!!! and also the main OP is finally over, i am back to blogging... not for long ... exams coming up next...

ok first... i will talk about POM presentation which was freaking last minute preparation... ok the role- playing was totally horrendous... we dunno what we were doing.. but ms ho said our presentation skills were great... (now thats wat i call encouraging) haha... but yeah when we are in law course... its not up to standard ( esp when u r in ferlin's class) and i noe he is pushing us because he wants us to be the best...

then it was macro Q&A.... it was alright for my part... and u noe wat? SAI was soooooo "helpful" towards her groupmate! u noe? (get the sarcasm?) when i tried to confirm with her which unemployment is the bad one... u shld seriously look at her freak face... not wanting to ans my qns by saying she was not sure... WOW!!!! as if u dunno ... at least i managed to find out... i thought she was getting better.. but the truth is.. i was wrong!!!

fine at least i dun have to work with her anymore.... now that csa, pom and macro is over... i'm a free person now...

then let's proceed with the OP!!! the day before OP and the day of OP... every single time i reminded myself that OP is here... my heart will pump like mad.... the feeling is really horrible...
well... the fact that ferlin say i am calm and controlled BUT lack of energy...was .... funny... he wants me to smile when i'm presenting... (i was like "huh? he expects me to smile when i said that someone is dead) its juz not right... but during rehearsals, i tried to sound not so solemn.. but can't expect much.. i tried hard to smile at the start but near the middle, i sounded solemn again.... yeah .. one thing i'm worried abt was tis.. there is something else i was worried about...

it was Julia... i mean i can see that she is working hard... its juz that i can't trust her fully.... i was afraid that she doesn't have her formal.. or she doesn't come for rehearsals.. or she doesn't remember her lines and say "weird things".. or worst of all... she doesn't come on that day at all....

so i sort of made her promise that she will come for rehearsals, have her formal, remember her lines and COME ON THAT DAY!!! and she promised... but i was still worried... duh....
on monday... she said her grandfather or something father passed away.. so she did not come for rehearsal.... it made my even more worried...

so i asked her to come the next day.. and asked if she got her formal already.. and she said she did.... so one worry down... and the next day she really came.. but someting else worried me... that is... we overshot the 20 mins given.... so we were like tell julia not to take to much time pausing.... we ended cramping everything into 19min ++... but its a very dangerous time....

one worry down another worry up... so on wednesday... (OP DAY) the whole morning my heart was thumping like mad... didn't have appetite... i felt horrible... it feels like my heart is jumping out anytime... i felt like vomitting... i was worried... and yeah julia came... so we went on with our rehearsal.. and julia memorised her speech but problem is.. she paused very long to remember them.... so we exceeded 20 min again.... it was only few hours left to the OP.... everyone was like sooo worried..... we wanted to cramp everything up at the front so that we can leave around 6 mins ( which is the total time taken for 2 ppl to speak) to julia... but when we rush .. we tend to forget our lines... so .. we decided that julia can simply look at her paper when she speaks... so after "lunch" (didn't eat) .. it was OP... whch was realy scary while waiting.... i was practicing like mad... cause there was a part where i kept forgetting the next point... so i juz kept mumbling to myself... and julia came after her lunch.. and me and shiken listened to her part.. guess wat.. she did really well... so we were a little more confident...

in the cold room... Mr Pok, Ms Ng, Ms Tay(juz there for fun, i guess) and Mr J were the assessors... Mr J was trying to not let us be too stress... he had his hair spiked up to the middle.. (i dunno wat u call it) the david beckham hair and he got stub... ( is that wat u call it? sort of forgot the name).. he wore blazor too... oh i also planned not to look at the ppt when we were presenting at all... and also no cue cards. so that i will maintain 100% eye contact with the audience... other than the box as my headliner...

so yeah .. each groups went on ... Q&A for each group was rather.... not smooth... Mr Pok asked CHIM qns..... so now i'm worried for the Q&A... and i felt like peeing... and vomitting and cold.... so i went toilet with shiken... felt better but after 15 mins... i felt like peeing again.. but the prob is.. i didn't drink alot... but its going to be our turn soon.. so i beared with it....
oh and for every group when they were presenting.. from time to time i will look at Mr J.. to see if he is satisfied.. or if he is laughing angry...esp during the q&a part..
then its our turn... greeting the teachers weren't smooth at all... too many of them.... and THANKS FRENS who answered my stupid qns!!! haha!!! so cooperative... and for my part... it was not bad... no mistakes and i dun need to look into my cue cards or ppt... so yeah i achieved my eye contact standard!!! haha!!! shiken said my headliner was like crimewatch host!!! haha... anyway ... things turned out right except that the ppt was kinda laggy ... esp after the video... other than that it was good... Q&A ..a little screwed... but overall it was great... haha.. best presentation of our group so far... . mr ferlin said i've IMPROVED!!!!! i think... so yeah was kinda happy with this comment of his.... REALLY ELATED!!!!! i felt fireworks inside me... haha!!! and ferlin was saying how far we have come.... from the 1st ever 3 min speech to this main OP.... 13 weeks... (i think around there)... past.... time flies.... actually... everyone of us are improving without us knowing.... the one giving the 3 min speech... and the one standing up there giving a presentation to our senior partners.... the change is .... can't be put into words.... everyone wearing formal... so cool... the feeling of professionalism... even ah lun grew up... with his fringe trimmed to look like a human (haha jkjk) got rid of his cat tie... stopped hopping when giving presentation.. stop talking like machine gun.. yeah everyone looked so mature in that room.... and ferlin saying he was happy with us was the best... although des's group had a mistake with the facts... so didn't turn out good... i was so worried for them when pok and J threw qns at them ... kind of scary at that moment.. Kim is worried for lsm... i dunno how to console her but... yeah kim u can do it... i'm not good in consoling those who are sad... so yeah... its a long post... haha...

and we didn't take photos... sadness....

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6:08 PM